If You Can Imagine it, You Can Dream It, Dream It and You Can Become It!

Mess sweet Mess!!!

What I wouldn't give for a magic wand or Samantha's nose twitch or if Sabrina (r.i.p), my deceased sister, or even the Teenage witch character could come and do some magic to help with the unpacking and organizing at our new house  and our lives. 

Granted, have been in Greensburg a little over a month, and I was working 12 + hours a day at my now defunct job, which we will NOT discuss...and then my fibromyalgia went haywire, AGAIN...GRRR!!! so now...I decided...no more BS!!! I am so tired of people taking advantage of me and my talents and so, I am launching my business, pursuing my acting career, getting the house fixed up and getting healthier again...I am still pursuing other opportunities as well but I will no longer take a job out of desperation.  I am an extremely talented woman and now, after being screwed over the past few years, I am determined not to make the same mistakes again.  

My health and happiness and relationship with my husband is more important to me than anything. I will no longer kill myself working 10-15 hours a day for employers who do not care about me, my well being or their clients or employees. I hope to find a new job soon, but I have a whole new list of demands this time--lol!! Wish me luck!!!

“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.”

Jimmy Dean]

10.5 years of clutter and 2 weeks to go!

After 10.5 years in the same duplex, I have accumulated A LOT of stuff! I wouldn't say I am a hoarder by any means, perhaps I had a mild shopping problem at one time, when I was bored or depressed, but now that I have identified the problem with clear eyes and a big WTF was I thinking, that issue is clearly nipped in the bud.  Now the question is, what to do with all of it?  Due to an illness and unemployment, money has been extremely tight, so I have turned to selling wedding leftovers on craigslist.or and taking clothes to consignment shops and other means to make some cash for my sell able goods and donating the rest of my previous unconscious expenditures.

I would like to go into our new home clutter free, keeping it clean and never getting to this point again.  I often watch shows like clean house and how do I look and think about how people got to the point they were at in their homes.  For me, I think it was losing my sister to cancer 5 years ago.  Shopping had always been a pastime we shared, something we had in common.  I enjoyed wearing nice clothes, even though I was overweight, I wanted to present myself well. When she passed away, I had a hard time getting rid of her stuff, I bought tings when I was depressed which was a long time after she died.  I went over board planning my wedding because I was extremely stressed out, and bought so many things that were unnecessary.

I am hoping that this new start brings my husband and I so many things that we so desperately need in our lives.  Time to stop being scared and take a chance in doing something in life that you usually wouldn't do. What's life if you don't take chances?

A New Year, A New Town, A New Job, An Old House, A Fresh Start

‎"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." -Unknown

2011 is a year of changes for C and I.  We will be leaving our lives in Pittsburgh where he has spent 34 and I have spent the last 10.5 and moving back to the area where I grew up.  Why? My Gram passed away on 9-7-10 and we were offered the opportunity to live in her house for a few years and eventually buy it if the spirit moves us, or if fortune shines down upon us and adds some extra money in our pockets, we just might:)


Since getting married on 8-29-2009, we have had our share of obstacles, but this blog is to chronicle the fresh start we so desperately need in so many ways.  We will be recreating ourselves in a new town, making new friends, and hopefully giving our relationship an overhaul.  It will be an adjustment for both of us, but maybe things will change for the better!

Small Town lyrics

Well I was born in a small town

And I live in a small town

Prob'ly die in a small town

Oh, those small communities

All my friends are so small town

My parents live in the same small town

My job is so small town

Provides little opportunity

Educated in a small town

Taught to fear Jesus in a small town

Used to daydream in that small town

Another born romantic that's me

But I've seen it all in a small town

Had myself a ball in a small town

Married an L.A. doll and brought her to this small town

Now she's small town just like me

No I cannot forget where it is that I come from

I cannot forget the people who love me

Yeah, I can be myself here in this small town

And people let me be just what I want to be

Got nothing against a big town

Still hayseed enough to say

Look who's in the big town

But my bed is in a small town

Oh, and that's good enough for me

Well I was born in a small town

And I can breathe in a small town

Gonna die in this small town

And that's prob'ly where they'll bury me

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/john-mellencamp-lyrics/small-town-lyrics.html ]